Being in a fraternity—
I enjoy it
but sometimes I feel like
thoughts are being put in my head which are not mine and I have made relationships that revolve around very few things
and the stigma from living in a frat is horrible i mean
we have to host all the parties and pay for the booze and take care of drunk people. We have to clean everyone's puke and very very few times do other people come to help us out. And then we get blamed for everything that happens in them, and whenever there's a "fuck the patriarchy" movement it's the fraternities that take all the flack I mean come on I am in a fraternity because I liked the idea of cheap housing and no RAs. I have a little sister and a mother, I love them both and I would never do anything disrespectful to women, so why do people scoff at me when I tell them I'm greek? Even my girlfriend ended up breaking up with me because she was so intolerant... This college is supposed to be unpretentious...
It also takes up a lot of my time and having ADD and depression is the worst since I get distracted so easily... my parents used to keep me in check but now that I live so far away from them I am fucked.
Greek life did help me endure this school but I feel like the novelty wore off and now I 'm back to not liking this school but I don't have anywhere else to go from here. My grades are mediocre and I won't get a better deal anywhere else. I hadn't thought about suicide in years and now I find myself thinking about it ironically. However I feel like if I really do lose my shit that's the way I will end up going... the only way. I've never been so pressured all my life
has anyone dropped a fraternity after living in? Did you maintain your relationships?
What happened afterwards? How do you make friends in one of the most clique-run colleges of the U.S. if you're just a fuckhead like myself who doesn't even know what he is or what he's looking for...
—Dazed and confused
Posted at a quarter past three in the morning on October 15th, 2014.